Oh I can imagine, I was just there with my mom & I do understand that there's only so much they can do & do understand that their hands are tied. I felt so bad for so many of the people I was around, besides the blood & fluids & such, my biggest problem is that I can't stand to see anyone suffer & there's only so much you can do & for a person to beg you to help them & you've already done all you can do at the moment is heartbreaking & it's ****** when it's someone you love. I did all that I could do for my mom & still am but there was so many times I felt like it just wasn't enough, take 2 steps forward & then she wouldn't be taken care of properly & she had so many setbacks it was so frustrating. I have so much respect for those who do it day in & day out but I guess I should really take that back, it's not that they care maybe, there is just way too much put on the nurses, they have like 15-20 patients to one nurse & most of the time you need 2 of them to get half of the things done that needs to be done. The summer was easier, I had my daughter with me too & once we learned a few things, we took care of my mom pretty good but after she went back to school it was ****** but I got through it, the ******* part is getting my dad to accept that she's never gonna get back to where she was, that worries & overwhelms me. Anyways, sorry, didn't mean to talk your head off about it!